[ Posted on December 23, 2009 @ 8:32 pm ] darkmagiciangrl [ mood | cheerful ] Christmas break. Including Thanksgiving and such. Although it's supposedly the longest break ever since we have from before thanksgiving till January 4th off. It feels like the SHORTEST. Phew. I've been working quite a bit. From babysitting to Sweet and Sassy it's been a lot of hours put in. Yet I adore both of my jobs. They make me want to work with kids, but then again make me realize I might just want to have my own kids in the future rather than be surrounded by them twenty-four seven. Yeah, that sounds nice. Despite my love for Sweet and Sassy and the hugs that I've received from dolled up little girls, I have felt like a complete failure. I just have this sense that no one likes me and I'm just this awkward girl. It drives me crazy. I apparently put a lil too dark makeup on and this girl freaked out and the other one fixed it while bitching about me. I didn't know what to do. I do simple makeup, I don't know what they're expecting, and I do what the lil girls want. Plus they talk about high school stuff and I don't know what to say. I just feel old. ugh. In addition, I don't know how to do hair. We had a seminar, but I didn't get enough time to actually do the hair and learn. It was more people doing it for me. So I freak out at the thought of it and I feel soo bad. I want to learn. I think I learned how to do a few things today, but it still makes me nervous. I want to do better! So much. Besides these things, I spent most of break with the boy. Pretty much whenever I was not working we'd hang out, play video games together, watch movies, or whatever. We were super lazy though, the cold scares us away from life. It's been fun though. I have a little christmas tree with presents and decorations. We made snowflakes and baked and made cake. Overall, pretty fabulous break. Christmas eve is tomorrow and I'm really excited. I just love spending the time with my family and being able to do all these things. Plus we're going to Children's mass tomorrow, which I love. And I haven't been to church in a while due to being so busy last quarter. It'll be fun times with the family. I can't wait to see my niece though. She was just excited seeing the presents we had for her under my tree and eating my cookies. It'll be a good day. I'm not looking forward to going back to classes though. I need to order all my books and they're pretty expensive this quarter. I'm taking a science class with lots of big expensive books and an English class with just a lot of books in general. I'm hoping I can get them on amazon soon, but Christmas has taken up most of my time and planning. I'm taking a science lab (Women's Health), an English class (Narrative Writing), a Philosophy Class (Asian philosophy), and a basic communications class. It'll be interesting, I guess... or hope. We'll see. Either way I'm not looking forward to trudging through snow to get to class each day. I should get to wrapping the last few things before it gets too late and I forget. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays. - Mollie Post Comment

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